i suck at getting work done.
i suck at going to sleep.
i suck at waking up on time.
i suck at deciding if i should go to PA to canvass this weekend or not.
the first three things are pretty cyclical. i don't sleep because i have work to do and thus i do not wake up on time and since i am so tired i still don't get work done and then i stay up too late again and don't wake up on time again and feel crappy all day and it never ends.
the other thing is a real issue right now. my mom says it should come down to not whether or not i want to go to PA, because i very obviously do, i need to decide this based on my ability to get work done. i screwed myself this weekend by not getting any work done and i absolutely can not do that again this weekend. this weekend i need to not only do my work for next week, i also have to catch up on what i didn't finish for this week. with this understanding/logic i can not, logistically, go to PA this weekend. but how do i convince myself to accept that. i feel like it is so important to get out there and get obama the presidency and maybe it's silly to think i could make a difference but i mean, i could. it also would be so cool to be able to say that i was a real part of it all. i feel so torn. i need input and logical outside opinions.
i am so tired.
tomorrow i have to start planning my next book project. i think it is going to have something to do with the world being put back together piece by piece. maybe not though. i'm also thinking of making it about whales or bears. i also feel like drawing lots of small roses and other flowers or a city. i obviously don't have any concrete ideas yet.
back to work.
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