sass

library.

no tea to drink.

need tea,

need to write paper before sleep.

required to sit at acd lab monitor station 'till 1am.

baked apple pear crumble, ate it with friends.

neil brought a klondike bar, 

made him peel off chocolate for apple pear crumble a la mode. 

going to pub to get tea.

then back to work times.

i can do it.

sensitive lamps

i'm in the library again. this year the library is the place where i work best. in the past that has not been true but this year it is. i made myself a cup of chocolate milk to inspire me to work harder. it's not working so far. although, i did just get here and i always have to adjust to the atmosphere before i can ever really get work done. this blog entry is part of that adjustment. when i got here all of the tables in the center of the middle floor of the library were taken so i sat over near the reference section and then a table opened and i basically ran for it. i like these tables so much more than any other study area in the library. i don't even mind the new, creepy, touch sensitive lamps. the entire right side of my body is achy today, from playing nerf football at the post office all morning yesterday with kelly and rachel and tessa and alex. i keep considering taking aspirin, and then i just don't. 

yesterday at brunch i lost my favorite blue cardigan... well i know where i left it so i didn't really lose it but when i went back to find it where i had forgotten it a half hour prior it was gone, someone took it. sweaters don't just disappear. i was really upset that my favorite sweater was gone, but i think i am even more upset at the moral compasses of my classmates. i don't understand the mentality of a person who finds a sweater that isn't theirs and just keeps it. so bizzare and disappointing. 

it is humid and gross everywhere on campus right now. i tried turning the ac on in my room but apparently they shut it off because warm air was the only thing blowing out of the vents. so i turned it off. it is gross here in the library too, but at least there are large tables for me to spread out my work on. 

i have a really lot of work to do today, and tomorrow and tuesday. and wednesday too. 2 papers to write, a book to make, chapters to read. hopefully some company will appear soon. 

biden v. palin on thursday. i really hope this isn't true. matt damon agrees. high five matt damon.

ciao tutti.

squash

so much procrastinating is going on with me right now. i spent 3 hours working in the HVAC lab and didn't do any work. i watched 2 bad tv shows. now i'm in the library. i have 2 articles to read and 6 double entry journals to write before 1am when the libz closes. i can probably do it i just have to stop procrastinating. i went to the pub to make tea because i am out of milk and the milk i used must have not been skim because it tastes super weird and i don't like it. this is SO DISAPPOINTING. my usual table is also taken which is totally throwing me off as well. also, these stupid, new library lamps aren't working. 

my tea tastes like sadness and fat. 

tomorrow is my longest day. 13.5 hours from start to end with two one-hour breaks. one from 3-4 and one from 6-7. i may explode tomorrow. i also may just fall asleep in class. either would be pretty bad. 

ok work times. 

squash.

splash.

ciao.

'sall about the italics

Pla.ton.ic 

adjective

(of love or friendship) intimate and affectionate but not sexual: their relationship is purely platonic.

all i want to do is watch planet earth in bed and eventually i want to fall asleep because the truth is i don't sleep enough and i need to catch up. i just kind of wish i wouldn't have to do that alone.

i'm in the computer lab in the library "working". by working i mean that so far i have spent almost three hours doing random things on my computer and in life. i responded to most of my birthday facebook wall posts and i looked up the word platonic in the dictionary. not that i didn't know what it meant, i just like dictionary definitions. and now i just took a 6 minute break and went upstairs to take dvds out of the library. i talked to tdl. and chatted with some people on ichat. i looked up dvds in the library before i went to get them. i got barefoot in the part with jane fonda and robert redford, willy wonka and the chocolate factory starting the fabulous gene wilder, will smith's most revered film: men in black, walace and gromit in three amazing adventures and disney's beauty and the beast. this should be a lovely weekend.

super productive night, i should be sewing books.

1.25 hours to go. 

ciao.

and stop reading into why i put platonic in here, i just did, deal guys.

so many pages

i am having SUCH a hard time working right now. i can not save all of this crap till wednesday evening anymore. all i can think about is a thing i should be not thinking about. and gossip girl is about to finish downloading onto my computer. i feel like the biggest slacker ever.

kelly and i went to yoga today. i don't know if i liked it. i'm going to go back next week though because it's probably good for me, plus it'll help me get more flexy.

in 30 minutes i have to go to the library, to the computer lab, to work for 2 hours. the good thing is that it is likely that no one else will be there and that i will actually get my work done there. okay. i think i need to stop this now. tomorrow is a long day. hopefully i'll be rewarded at the end of it. CIAO CIAO CIAOOO!

success part II

so this is what i looked like at my birthday party on saturday, drinking shirley temples with kelly.

and this is what i looked like at my birthday party when i turned 3.

and here is what i look like today, a 21 year old lady, ready to buy booze all legally and junk.

i pretty much look the same as when i turned 3. 

mom and lex brought me that unicorn balloon today. pretty sweet.

they also got me these sweet shades.

belly dancing tonight with kell-o. pretty exciting. then maybe food with friends for birthday times. i have a retarded amount of work to do before wednesday. i feel extremely distracted by things that i shouldn't care about. i do care about them though, a lot. 

birthdays are sweet. finally 21.  ciao.

success

it's my birthday. i'm 21. success.

love.

super employed

today i consider myself super employed. i think i have almost 5 jobs now. yesterday i had just one. today i filled out a contract with academic computing so i can work nights. i also got two babysitting job calls, i'm starting one tomorrow. in addition to that i went to cma tonight with kelly to see the movies i made with the kids over the summer premiere and claire told me that she is hiring me as a teaching artist so i can sub in there for people when i have free days. 

also today i had my first artist's books class. it was amazing. i already love it. i knew i would but i am just so happy. before kelly and i went to cma we stopped at ny central so i could pick up some pretty papers. I LOVE PAPER. this week our artist's books assignment is to make a whole bunch of single signature and japanese bound books. as many as we want. i am going to make so many. it is all i plan on doing tomorrow and sunday. this year is really shaping up to be a good one. (knock on wood, i don't want to jinx myself) i am so excited about everything i'm doing.

what is a good, non-romantic, thing/gift to give to a friend that is going away for a long time if you don't want them to forget about you?

everyone is at the bar. on monday i can go to the bar legally. tomorrow i have to wake up at 7:30 am so i don't really care that i am not at the bar. kelly and i only got back here a few hours ago anyway and i had a shower, tea and toast. i'm going to sleep now. ciao.

so far

so far, so good. 

i think.

thank you echo for sending me the dodos, they are good for my life right now.

there are a lot of things in the world that i don't think i will ever understand. i don't really care about these things when i am hanging out with kids. working at the ecc is probably the best thing about being in the art of teaching program. when i'm there, watching little people discover the world i don't even stop to think about the crap i worry about the rest of every single day. yesterday i got to be there when 16 people saw red and blue ink mix and create purple before their eyes for the first time. they were shocked, amazed, enamored with the magic of it. in my head i said: "that is why i want to be a teacher." it is. i can't wait.

wednesday is my crazy day. usually i will still be at the ecc now but since today is only the 3rd day of school they don't go for a full day yet. at 1 i have class and then i have class again at 4. there is an slc dems meeting tonight that i'm excited about because i want to get nice and involved with them this year. also, maybe me and echo will go buy dinner food. 

how many days are there left in september? 20. okay. 

birthday party saturday. MSNBC series finale. sad times? good times! excited to finally be 21 on monday! excited to celebrate with my friendssssssssss! 

a little more dodos before i have to go to the bookstore and class. 

i miss italy. mi manco l'italia.

arrivederci.  amore.

sept 8

i just wanted to say that i really love that picture of my dad (the one i posted at 2:30 am) he looks so awesome in it. 

okay, job hunting must commence now. 

ciao.

school

grandpa has been posting lots of pictures on facebook from the nineties. 

me and sister

mom and dad

i'm at school. orientation week is over. i think that is probably a good thing, it has taken my body 2 days so far to get over what i put it through this week. my calves still feel like rubber bands that someone is pulling on suuuper hard from dancing just as hard as said person is pulling. 

here's a part of me and my bed. there's lots of other things in my room, photos of them seem silly though, come visit and you can see them.

i'm not babysitting this year, at least not for whom i used to babysit. i need a new babysitting job so that i can make money, money outside of my post office money. tomorrow is job hunt day. until class time at 4:30. 4:30 marks the beginning of my career as a sarah lawrence college art of teaching graduate student. i got into artist's books. WOO HOO. i can't wait. i am going to make the cutest books ever. i have so many ideasssss. 

i feel like ever since i've returned to school my body has forgotten how to sleep before 3 am. what am i doing awake anyway? i'll tell you what. i am watching gilmore girls. this is ridiculous. i need to go to sleep. ciao.